...so I took the liberty to practice my "photography" (I don't call it actual photography, since i haven't taken a class yet, so i'm still just a newborn.) but, yeah. i really want to try doing some really funky photoshoots with my friends, but i've never done posed shoots before (except a little for molli's blog, http://alamerri.blogspot.com/ , but that's different). So this is me just testing the waters, see what kind of eye I have and all that jazz. blahhh. so i guess let me know what you think?
This past week of being "home" has been so....blahhh. I forgot how boring this town is. It's so odd. It was nice at first, being able to see my family and friends, but now it's just really boring. I almost forgot why I left this town in the first place- the first time to go to school in NYC; the second to study abroad in SEA.
Before, it used to get me down and I'd feel like I was stuck here. Now, however, it motivates me. I'm hoping to get at least 2 jobs this summer so I can work hard and make a lot of money, which I'll save up towards getting the heck out of here haha. During the school year I'll be renting a house with one of my best friends, Anna. I'm hoping to be able to keep one or 2 jobs while I study and just work my butt off at school to increase my GPA.
Being in Cambodia inspired me a lot to work harder in school. The students there have so much determination to succeed and do well, it made me feel lazy. These people go to 2 or 3 universities in order to major in multiple things, not to mention many of them work 1 or 2 jobs aside from that to help their families with money. And they are always so friendly and eager to help and do things. It's understandable why they're like that, considering the Khmer Rouge killed off all of the educated in the 70's, and it's great that this new generation is working toward something so special- to make Cambodia a wonderful place in the eyes of international countries, not just an ailing, grief-stricken, impoverished nation. I love that about them, and I miss my friends there so much.
It's raining right now. Ah, so peaceful. It was thundering on and off all day. Apparently it rained earlier, too, but I missed that. I don't know why, but for some reason I've been so tired the past couple of days. Not in a depressed kind of way, by any means, just tired. It could be because I never gave myself a chance to recover from jet lag. I thought I had manipulated my body's sleep cycle on the way back to this side of the world by trying to sync it with the time here, but maybe I didn't afterall. I've been taking naps, which is abnormal. I blame it on Southeast Asia. I never was a frequent napper before going there, but the heat gets the best of you and sometimes all you really need is a nice snooze midday. My problem right now is that i take them around 4 or 5 and don't wake up until around 7 or 8 hahaha. Oh, man. I think things will change once I get a job (hopefully that will be soon) so I can have a routine to my life.
Blahh blah blahhhhh.
Nothing else to ramble about. I'm gonna go try to watch the 'Virgin Suicides' online. Hopefully it's done loading. I really need to get Netflix. Which means I really need a job ;) lol